Wow, took me almost an hour to read through all the pages. So this is what I think of the video:
I think Alex might be part of the order but i think she wants to get out. The way she threw her drink at the guy(Carl was it? I'm not sure), her flirting with Daniel, how she overlooked his comment about running away from the order...I don't know but it seems to me that she's not happy with some of her “friends”. Everything was just so secretive and uncomfortable.
Also if the whole party was the order, then why would that guy freak out at Alex? If the whole Alex flirting with Daniel is her “mission” to get closer with him for the order then the guy wouldn't get mad at her right? If he was part of the order he would know that she doesn't actually like Daniel.
Now I'm convinced Jonas isn't part of the order. But i also think he isn't totally against it. In my opinion he's trying to find out information about his parents' deaths and the rest of his family. Thats why he joined Bree and Daniel, so they could combine what they know. I guess what I'm saying is that he might have his own reasons for inviting Bree and Daniel to his house.
Beth just seems like a determined reporter who will take what you say and rewrite it in the most horrible way. She seems really aggressive and intimidating. Her facial expression just screams “control freak” all over it. I brought this up to show that her bitchy attitude doesn't automatically mean she's in the order.
JustAnotherLonelyGirl. wrote:joygasm wrote:JustAnotherLonelyGirl. wrote:
Whoa.. that's cute though. Is your daughter the little girl in your avatar? She's adorable. She reminds me of my cousin Sami. They have the same smile and look really alike.
I haven't gotten too personal either with people here, but for the record, I've never done any of these drugs. I've drank alcohol. I smoked pot like twice but I didn't like it. So I just drink, and not too frequently. Not a big party girl, unless it's with my friends and ppl I'm comfortable being open with.

I worked at an indie rock club in Nashville. It was hard not to do drugs... but I can't blame the scene... my drug use was exactly what I wanted. Ever since I had read the book "Go Ask Alice" I had been amazed by drugs and wanted to experience all that I could. I also wanted to get it out of my system before I had a child. I knew I always wanted to be a mother. I said when I was 20 that I wanted to be thinking about having a family by the age of 22 and I got pregnant 6 days after my 22nd birthday. So far, my life has worked out exactly how I had planned for it too. Right down to being a single mother because I didn't want to deal with a man's bullshit :hehe:
I now return you back to the original topic of this post...
I read that book too. It was sad. I'm glad your life is working out well! I'm still pretty young (18), so I haven't really gotten to make many choices yet. But so far my plans have been working out for the future.

I just did LSD (second time) this week. I don't know if I want to do it again. I don't like drugs that you can't control, and LSD was completly uncontrollable for me, I felt like an idiot. But drinking, ketamine and e are a whole different deal because you can control your actions. Also this kinda explains why Alex was so flirty and then got angly/serious so suddenly. She wasn't completely wasted, so it would be no problem for her to get serious when she needed to.