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| ==Look into her I's==
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| Aphid suggested we look into her eyes and it was suggested that the big I is her Order persona and i is her persona. With the name Julie standing in as little i we get this text<br><br>
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| so I haven't updated this in awhile<br><br>
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| and I removed all of my old videos.<br>
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| (long story, but Julie learned my/her lesson)<br><br>
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| it's nice to have fallen into a gig<br>
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| that'll keep me nested in a somewhat familiar habitat...<br><br>
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| ...but I fear that is just an illusion.<br><br>
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| at least I keep telling myself that.<br>
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| but how long can Julie keep observing<br>
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| an illusion as real before my/her mind<br>
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| accepts it as reality?<br><br>
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| thankfully, the weather is nice.<br>
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| plenty of nature to explore. every<br>
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| week I learn about new places to<br>
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| go hiking or swimming...<br><br>
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| ...if and when Julie gets that rare free<br>
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| moment, I hope to have the energy<br>
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| left to actually prioritize that!<br>
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| (double optimism)<br><br>
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| all summer, the momentum of my<br>
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| day-to-day demands has kept me<br>
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| feeling like I am trapped in a state<br>
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| of exhausted motion<br><br>
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| <nowiki>[irony noted]</nowiki><br><br>
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| at least it's helping me ignore just<br>
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| how surreal I should find all of this,<br>
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| and Julie is ignoring it quite well.<br><br>
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| Julie is trying to approach it as my/her<br>
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| ability to keep up with these<br>
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| demands directly reflects qualities<br>
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| of my/her inner self...<br><br>
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| ...and my/her inner self has a fierce<br>
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| determination to be able to watch<br>
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| the World Series this year.<br><br>
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| right now, nothing sounds better<br>
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| than an actual game. I could use an<br>
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| excuse to try out some obscene<br>
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| gestures Julie's acquired<br><br>
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| but given that I was so<br>
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| overwhelmed with busy work<br>
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| yesterday that Julie had to be reminded<br>
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| that it was already the Fall Equinox...<br><br>
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| I am going to try and keep my<br>
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| expectations realistic. Believe me,<br>
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| I know that the closest Julie may get is<br>
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| watching it on live TV.<br><br>
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| I am glad at least that I found the<br>
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| time to write a little tonight.<br><br>
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| Julie should remind myself to do it<br>
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| more often.<br><br>
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| I've had a long day, so Julie is off to let<br>
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| my/her mind focus on a fantasy that<br>
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| actually might show even greater<br>
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| optimism on my part...<br><br>
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| <nowiki>[and believe me, if Julie could help<br>
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| make it happen I would]</nowiki><br><br>
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| but I'd love it if the Dodgers and the<br>
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| Angels faced off next month.<br><br>
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| but given my track record as of<br>
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| late, Julie haven't been so hot with<br>
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| most of my predictions.<br><br>
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| <nowiki>[I most sincerely hope I'm due]</nowiki><br><br>
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| xoxox,<br><br>
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| T<br><br>
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| [Please tell Mom and Dad that I'm thinking of them, Julie miss you too]
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Template:Tachyon
an update of sorts is the first video in the Tachyon video series, a component of the OpAphid game.
Transcript
(Black screen, white text.)
Text: so I haven't updated this in awhile
and I removed all of my old videos.
(long story, but i learned my lesson)
it's nice to have fallen into a gig
that'll keep me nested in a somewhat familiar habitat...
...but I fear that is just an illusion.
at least I keep telling myself that.
but how long can i keep observing
an illusion as real before my mind
accepts it as reality?
thankfully, the weather is nice.
plenty of nature to expore. every
week I learn about new places to
go hiking or swimming...
...if and when i get that rare free
moment, I hope to have the energy
left to actually prioritize that!
(double optimism)
all summer, the momentum of my
day-to-day demands has kept me
feeling like I am trapped in a state
of exhausted motion
[irony noted]
at least it's helping me ignore just
how surreal I should find all of this,
and i am ignoring it quite well.
i am trying to approach it as my
ability to keep up with these
demands directly reflects qualities
of my inner self...
...and my inner self has a fierce
determination to be able to watch
the World Series this year.
right now, nothing sounds better
than an actual game. I could use an
excuse to try out some obscene
gestures i've acquired
but given that I was so
overwhelmed with busy work
yesterday that i had to be reminded
that it was already the Fall Equinox...
I am going to try and keep my
expectations realistic. Believe me,
I know that the closest i may get is
watching it on live TV.
I am glad at least that I found the
time to write a little tonight.
i should remind myself to do it
more often.
I've had a long day, so i'm off to let
my mind focus on a fantasy that
actually might show even greater
optimism on my part...
[and believe me, if i could help
make it happen I would]
but I'd love it if the Dodgers and the
Angels faced off next month.
but given my track record as of
late, i haven't been so hot with
most of my predictions.
[I most sincerely hope I'm due]
xoxox,
T
[Please tell Mom and Dad that I'm thinking of them, i miss you too]
